1/26/06

January 26th, 2006

Don’t be afraid
Don’t be scared
It’s all going to work out
And, when you think it’s
over you’ll get hit again
But don’t be scared
I’ll be here with you
to help sort it out
I’ll hold your hand
It will be all right
So don’t be afraid
I promise

9-19-04

January 23rd, 2006

i want.
i need.
i should.
i could.
i can’t.
i won’t.
i feel.
i hurt.
i ache.
i love.
i must.
i see.
i don’t.
i laugh.
i cry.
i stumble.
i emerge.
i clasp.
i clutch.
i rest.
i wait.
i walk.
i run.
i whisper.
i scream.
i am.
does it ever fucking end?

-MOL

Four Twenty

January 23rd, 2006

I’m waiting for this profound moment
Not searching
Just waiting
I sit and day after day I wait
Nothing really happens
But yet I sit still
Words do not flood me
Moods frequently escape
And still nothing
It’s like I’m waiting for
Something spectacular to fly out at me
I’ll be damned if I even know what it is
My mind lingers
Intricate thoughts do not prevail
I feel mentally marooned
What the hell am I waiting for
Everyone knows that you have to search
For reflection can’t be given unless
You are willing to spread yourself
To see what it is your are really made of
Again
How am I to know
How am I to see
Because I wait
My soul seems empty
Motions are contented
Conversation flows
And I’m still waiting
I need to just stop waiting
Figure out what it is that needs to be
Smile
Breathe
But I should not wait
I’m postitive waiting is no good
To have a profound moment is to act
In this continuation we call life