Heavy Heart
While walking with my neighbor early last evening, we saw a plane fly overhead. Davey was wild with excitement and I kept telling him it was Papa, even though I knew it wasn’t Papa. After a minute she asked me the question that I’m sure so many have wanted to ask; the *question that many have asked: “Aren’t you scared of…you know..?”
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For the past week I’ve been a little preoccupied with reading a fellow blogger’s blog. This blogger is beautiful, articulate, sweet, and everything that makes a positive role model for women (and mamas) all over the world.
As I type she lays in critical condition, in a Phoenix hospital, with burns over 80% of her body. She was a passenger in a small plane that was piloted by her husband (and a certified flight instructor). A plane that lost engine power, shortly after take off, and crashed. She hasn’t seen her four children in weeks, nor her husband who is also in critical condition. I can’t help but feel connected, on so many levels. I can’t help but have a heavy heart for her and her family. Not to mention the flight instructor’s family, as he passed away, shortly after the crash.
Back to that *question: I’m scared, believe-you-me, I’m scared! I can’t imagine living without Michael on this earth. The thought of the “unthinkable” happening makes me want to turn inside-out, but still I remain strong and confident. I imagine that’s how Stephanie Nielson feels, too. Life is too short to be scared and not do what makes you whole and happy. In reading back I see that Christian, her husband, loved flying. The love was shared with the family, down through the children. This accident was just that; an accident that happens to the best people, or so it seems. So–here–I sit reading through the Nie Nie Dialogues, getting to know Stephanie (and her young family of six), laughing, crying, wondering how quiet their house is now, growing sadder still, yet remaining ever hopeful.
The best I can do from my corner of the earth is pray that Mr. and Mrs. Nielson pull through this. I pray that this is something that can be used for positivity in their lives, in their family’s life. I pray that this is something that gets easier, not harder. I pray that God gives this beautiful family a chance to continue thriving. For them, I simply pray….
Writing this on September 11th, I can’t help but also think about that dreaded day in 2001. Seven years and I still remember that day like yesterday. More prayers extended with a heavy heart.
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So much sadness on this day. So much sadness – enough for any day – enough for many days. I pray – as it is all I can do.
Oh, Mishi. Hugs, just hugs and more hugs. It’s already a tough and heavy hearted day enough without more of the same. Here’s one more hug.
I read about the Nielsons and I add my prayers to yours for their recovery, and for you and yours.
What a moving post. And, as always, thanks for a bit of Dave Matthews.
So much to have a heavy heart about. Such a tragic story, such a tragic day today.
It is important to remember that life is for living. Sure, we could all stay hidden in the closet each day, safe from all dangers, and probably live to be 100 years old. Hmmmmm, 100 years old and yet you have not really lived. Or, you’ll die young in the safety of your closet because a large meteor, one that has been traveling through space for millions of years, struck your house.
Truth is, we don’t know when or how it will happen and there’s no sense in worrying about it. Control what you can, but don’t be caught dead without having lived.
Oh Mishi – you know I am a pilot and when I hear things like this and think that I could one day have an accident and deprive my sweet Graham of his mama it almost makes me want to hang up my wings.
But I can’t, you know? He deserves better. He deserves a mama that isn’t afraid, even though I sometimes am because I can’t imagine leaving him…
I posted about my hubby learning to fly this weel….by coinsidence…or was it really a coinsidence?
I do NOT (for me) think that by choosing NOT to fly, I am not living. If I wanted to fly….really wanted to fly. I would.
Many things in life we SHOULD be afraid of, and we should proceed with caution if we have children that depend on us. I am NOT saying that flying is that thing for everyone though. but I do think it is for me. for me….it feels like an unneccesary risk. for me.
so does hubby fly for a living or for fun?
Corey,
Michael is a career pilot. He’s currently captain of a Shorts 360 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shorts_360) for a cargo company. He soared into this career in 2004, and it’s been the best thing ever.
Kelley (or is it Kelly),
You have to live and by living, controlling the fear, and believing, you give Graham way more than hanging up the wings ever could.
Michael,
I love you and love that you choose to live this life.
I pray for the parents too. What a terrible tragedy when accidents happen like that.
I have been following Nie Nie’s story as well. My heart goes out to her, her husband and her entire family. How sad.
I couldn’t have said it better than Michael so I won’t even try.
I have tears in my eyes reading about this…it really puts things into perspective.