Archive for Month: January, 2009
Bag Expansion
My New Friend: Canon Speedlite 580EX II
There are many highs, but nothing compares to the high you feel when another person completely believes in you. This is the high I am on and have been on. I feel that I am finally taken seriously in this photography endeavor, and Michael completely believes in my talent. It’s an amazing feeling.
I didn’t finish college. I’ve never done more than birth four kids and raise them (and my voice, occassionally.) I didn’t make any career moves as there were none to make. Except now, there is, and to have my husband believe in my so much, it makes me feel high.
So, I thank you Michael. For believing in me. For encouraging me. For helping me. For simply loving me.
Some other new friends arrive later this week and I can hardly wait!
Corrosion
A switch gets flipped and I lose it. I melt down. And circuits break. I hate this about myself. I hate that I am not perfectly patient. I hate that, without warning, something can turn me over and break me. Why is the emotion of anger so hard to have a handle on?
To add insult to injury I want to smile, but I can’t. I want to say it’s OK, it’ll be OK and just start over. I want to breathe, but I feel too embarrassed so I just hold my breath. If only it were as simple as an exhale. If only there was a rewind. Maybe I am just a mess of crossed wires and shorted fuses. Simply stated, though, I want to just reach in and pull out all the strange guts. Then maybe nothing will be able to flip, get crossed, feel broken. Then maybe I will be able to exhale. Maybe then I’ll be able to breathe.
For now acknowledgment will have to do. I was wrong and I let my emotions take over. I forgot to step back and my voice boomed with anger. I yelled and I hate that I yell. I’m sorry and I hope that I am forgiven.
The Raven
Alice came to a fork in the road. “Which road do I take?” she asked.
“Where do you want to go?” responded the Cheshire cat.
“I don’t know,” Alice answered.
“Then,” said the cat, “it doesn’t matter.”
—Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
Representation
Three weeks from now I will have already spoken on my panel at Blissdom with Mrs. Flinger and Domestic {chicky}, Leslie Flinger and Deanna Garretson, and our moderator Jenny Rapson from Mommin’ it Up.
I am also the official Blissdom ’09 Photographer. I’m excited to shoot the event, as well as see some of my friends, and meet new ones! This conference is going to be something else and to be a direct part of it is just so awesome.
Michael had these cards made for me. I’m so pleased with how they turned out!
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