Archive for Month: August, 2011


How Much is That Puppy in the Window?

Summer had this thing where she’d look out the windows that flank our front door, particularly the one on the right. In doing that she’d inevitably get nose marks on the window. Every week I would Windex off numerous smudges, in addition to cleaning off her eye boogers from the staircase spindles. For the longest time I couldn’t figure out what the black marks on the spindles were until one day I saw her peeking her head through, wiping them off, black against white.

We still have crusted black eye boogers on one of the spindles, and I quite honestly don’t know when I’ll clean them off. Maybe I never will.

I thought the same thing about the smudges. The day after I put her to sleep I saw the nose marks and burst into tears. The loyal doggie that would hear our van coming up the street would no longer be at the window waiting for us. I wanted those markings there so that I could remember her everyday.

But, now we have Pepper.

I saw her standing at the window where Summer used to stand so often, and I knew it was time to clean it off. Pepper deserves to have a clean window to see through, so she can be the loyal doggie that waits for us as we come up the street, tail wagging as our loud brigade emerges from the van, sometimes with shopping bags. Shopping bags that might or might not contain something that puppies LOVE.

So, yesterday I grabbed the Windex and some paper towels, and I made the window new and fresh for our little puppy.

Shortly, thereafter, there she was, waiting for me to come up the sidewalk, mail in hand. I could see her little tail wagging, and I was at peace with having readied the window for fresh nose marks.

No bones about it: I’m a dog lover. I thank God that I’m only allergic to cats, because I would be one sad puppy if I couldn’t have any puppies to love! (all. puns. intentional.)

All puns aside… You can Windex nose marks off or remove crusty eye boogers from spindles, but the marks left on your heart and soul can never be wiped clean of all the love, slobber, and eye boogers that your fur babies provide.

I’m still not going to clean the spindles off until I’m ready, yo; that’s for certain.

“He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.” – Author Unknown

Pepper 365 {Week 2}

She’s assimilated perfectly (this past Saturday marked Pepper’s two week anniversary as a “Girl Lane”.)
She’s grown (gaining 2lbs in one week.)
She’s vocal and hates mops or vacuums (definitely with the right family.)
She acquired a new toy (a de-stuffed Webkinz polar bear that Davey gave her.)
She lost two teeth (I found one stuck to the bottom of my foot and Mikey found the other in her night time bed.)
She’s got a purplish tongue and an overbite (and we love her so much.)

“A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself.”
~Josh Billings

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Weekly Winners {The Daily Dreams Edition}

Touch it, Mama. I dare you!

All in a day.

Lovely Livey

Benny Loves His Puppy

Sit. Stay. Good Girl.

Pie ALWAYS Wins!

Join me in October, for Dream Tending, a four week online self study course with Michelle Ensminger and Kelly Barton in association with Live it to the Full.

Life is a series of transitions, and navigating through those transitions can be tricky. Tending your most precious dreams in the midst of life’s transitions is trickier still. How do you learn to honor where you are and practice self-care, while at the same time maintaining focus on your dreams?

During this course, we’ll provide helpful tools you can use to nurture your dreams as you wade through life’s transitions. We’ll share our personal perspectives of transition and discuss ways you can keep your creative life fertile. Utilizing photography, art, and writing exercises, you’ll open yourself to the constancy and flow of dream tending  and discover that the fruit of dream tending is an enriched, meaningful, and awakened life.

Another installment of Mishi needs a full length mirror!

Tending a Garden of Dreams

When I was a little girl I used to say that I wanted to be a dentist.   I don’t even know if I wanted to be a dentist, I think I just had a crush on my dentist.    

Because, really, I was content to write poems in my bedroom while letting lyrics swirl in my head.   Though, some of my favorite memories are those that involved country drives where I would get lost in the trees, watching them zoom past the window, varied colors and intensities; they brought dreams without my knowing.

Years later, a woman grown, I would find myself holding tightly onto the love of life, on the back of a motorcycle with a “Mean People Suck” sticker on the back of my black helmet.   Too noisy to talk.  Too noisy to hear.  I was content to visually wander into the woods as they zipped by.  Each leaf seemingly etching itself on my heart.

When I was a little girl I never believed in cities such as New Orleans or Atlanta or Seattle.   Sure I knew about them through my schooling, but knew not of their ability to feed a creative soul.

Many years after paper studies, my life would take me on literal twists and turns.   U-haul trucks and tears would lead my way, and, oh, how I’d grow during these times.    Experiences would gather at my feet, like sturdy shoes, each carrying me, making me who I am with little regret.   There shouldn’t be regrets on the path of life; for when there are regrets there is sadness which begets darkness.  I’ve come to know that it’s in the light when [you] feel warmth and love—without constraint, judgment, or worry.

Traveling and living in different and new places has supplemented my life in ways that I’m still trying to put into words.  But, there’s something to be said for getting on a Greyhound bus, an airplane, a train, or–even–in a van full of loud and mess and chaos for over fifteen hours, that makes your dreams soar to see the places where you can  Just. Be.

Which leads me to this space where I write and spill dreams.  Most of them recur after seeing something my children do, or when I hear an old song, or smell something familiar.   Locked are they in my heart vault, locked away, begging to come out and play.   With each word.  With each click.  With each foot in front of the other.  They beg to come out, as often they do.

I had no idea that while I sat on my childhood bedroom, writing in various notebooks, dreaming about days to come, that they would come so quickly.  I had no idea that the days would pass almost supersonically.   After all, I thought I wanted to be a dentist.

Dentist? Me?  As if.   More like Dreamer, and a Wife, and a Mother.   A lover of words, and–more importantly– a lover of seeing.   Hoping that no matter what I dream, no matter what I do, that I do it and Live It To The Full.  

Join me, Michelle Ensminger, and Kelly Barton in October 2011 for Dream Tending, a four-week, online workshop.

Class price is $49 and includes daily posts  (Monday through Friday) and weekly activities in multimedia art, storytelling and photography to tend your own dreams in times of transition. In addition, there will be a creative toolkit section included in each week’s lessons.  Class begins October 3.

Course Description

Life is a series of transitions, and navigating through those transitions can be tricky. Tending your most precious dreams in the midst of life’s transitions is trickier still. How do you learn to honor where you are and practice self-care, while at the same time maintaining focus on your dreams?

During this course, we’ll provide helpful tools you can use to nurture your dreams as you wade through life’s transitions. We’ll share our personal perspectives of transition and discuss ways you can keep your creative life fertile. Utilizing photography, art, and writing exercises, you’ll open yourself to the constancy and flow of dream tending  and discover that the fruit of dream tending is an enriched, meaningful, and awakened life.

My Fellow Instructors

Kelly BartonKelly Barton is a mixed media artist and graphic designer from her home base of middle Indiana. She is inspired by the inner-workings of a girl’s nutty mind and believes that growing up girl is enough inspiration for any artist. She features her artwork in her eclectic mixed media art pieces, funky notecards, spunky jewelry baubles, and fun tee-shirts available on her Etsy shop. Kelly created Kelly Barton Art +Design to remind people that we’re all connected, and because she believes we all need a bit of happy.

Kelly’s art has appeared in several national shows, including CORE: The Art and Design of the Torso (2009),the Enormous Tiny Art Show (2008), and Visions of Squam I and II (2009, 2010). Kelly’s work appeared on the cover of Underwired Magazine in March 2008, and she is a contributor to the book Inner Excavation: Exploring Your Self Through Photography, Poetry and Mixed Media (published by North Light Books).

 

Michelle EnsmingerMichelle Ensminger loves poetry, photography, and dates with her 8 year old son. A West Texas native, you can often find her curled up in a makeshift fort writing her way through the messiness of life. Michelle always strives to nurture her creative spirit and pursue an authentic spiritual path in the midst of motherhood and working an 8-5 job. She believes writing can heal and awaken us to life, that stillness holds great power, and in the sacred act of honoring the present moment.  She is currently taking a hiatus from blogging, but she is a regular, monthly contributor for Wish Studio. You can find more of her on Flickr and Facebook.

 

 

Weekly Winners {The Mossy Tree Visit Edition}

“It is not so much for its beauty that the forest makes a claim upon men’s hearts, as for that subtle something, that quality of air that emanation from old trees, that so wonderfully changes and renews a weary spirit.”
—Robert Louis Stevenson

 



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