Archive for Category: Me, Myself, and I
The One Where Coffee and Cookie Crumbs are Metaphors
in one hand
a coffee cup
in the other
a chocolate cookie
deliberately
to be dunked
dreaming
instantly
about
the silky texture
how lusciously soft
my heated elixir
would transform
this crisp cookie
oh
too soon
SPLOOSH
fingers foiled
the cookie
quickly sank
to the bottom of
my favorite mug
the one with the
extra wide handle
for comfort grip
crying out
it did no good
for the cookie
already sunk
to the bottom
waiting to be
fished out by spoon
with a final reward
creamy chocolate crumbs
“It comes and goes in waves…”
I am slowly coming back to life.
Through images and actions and sounds and words;
I feel the electricity that is me, myself, and I.
Finger cannot be put on it, but I call it longing.
I desire the monochrome to be colored brilliantly,
With glitter and confetti and soaring thoughts;
I think we all want something more.
Not to be caged in the daily boredom,
I strive for those moments when doors can be opened
Allowing take off.
I fly to the clouds with mended wings.
Listen and enjoy:
“I choose to find the beauty, I choose to see the love and brilliance in the [woman] I behold” —Michelle Ensminger
7 things I find at the center of my longing:
…to be completely healthy,
…to find my purpose as a photographer,
…to make time for conscious breath daily,
…to find a balance between being a mother and being a woman,
…to set goals for family, home, relationships, work, and myself,
…to relinquish worry and self doubt,
…to always be true to my morals and beliefs
Where I Stand:
Living; Day By Day
This is where I stand: I’m a mother. I’m a photographer. I’m a blogger/writer. I’m a Family Support Liaison {I like that one of my titles includes the word “liaison”—it’s so French.}
Mix all these things together and oftentimes it’s hard to catch a moment to concentrate on myself: How I care for myself. How I address my needs. How I tend my dreams.
There’s so much more I should be doing: I should practice Yoga daily. I should just exercise daily, in general. I should eat better and lose weight.
I should be more patient. I should focus in my business direction. I should figure out how to use this blog more, these days, because lately it seems like it’s asleep.
My heart tells me that it wants to do things. And, I’m still just trying to figure out how to let myself fall into the center of my longing.
Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don’t be afraid. – Frederick Buechner
Six.
Updated: The Canvas winner, as determined by Random.org is Jodi! Congratulations!
Six years ago I created this space to write whatever came to my mind. I also wanted to be able to document funny things our children did or said, because–naturally–our children are as funny as their parents. For a long time, however, it was not made public. The space was all mine, and if I wanted to write about how I just sneezed and tinkled, at the same time, I could. Mostly, though, I wanted a space where I could–once again–write poetry and prose. I’ve been writing here for six years, in addition to the various leather bound journals that amassed through my years before children. Don’t even get me started on the forgotten notebooks and trashed pieces of napkin at the coffee shops.
I look at those old journals;
amazed at the words
that came out
from me
revealing who
I was back then
and how I’ve grown
Six years changes a person. I’ve written some of my favorite pieces here, and look back amazed at the words that have come out from me. I used to care how many people read or didn’t read, but mostly I cared about comments (read: peer validation). Now, though, I only care about four people who will read (and have started to read) my words.
This blog is for them…
Six years with almost
two thousand posts
filled with words and photos;
I will continue to write
for our family’s posterity
Sometimes to laugh
Sometimes to cry
I want for [you]
To see what I saw
To hear what I heard
To enjoy what I enjoyed
To feel what I felt
To understand what I understood
To see me as I see myself
Oh, and it wouldn’t be a “blog-o-versary” without presents!
One commenter will win their very own 16” x 20” rolled canvas print from UPrinting.com.
How, you ask?
Just comment telling me how long you’ve been blogging.
If you don’t blog, tell me what you would name your blog if you started one today!
The winner will be notified via email.
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