Archive for Category: Me, Myself, and I

My {Favorite} Song

I was recently asked—while I was either experiencing a panic attack or low blood sugar episode or something that was definitely a direct result of my own stupidity—what my favorite song was.   I know the person that was doing the asking was just asking to keep me reeled in during this episode, and while I heard the question I didn’t answer it; I was too busy going through all the song files that my brain could shuffle through, in that state.
The next day I came up with the one song that I always revisit, and I texted the title to my friend.



Come and see
I swear by now I’m playing time against my troubles
I’m coming slow but speeding
Do you wish a dance and while
I’m in the front
The play on time is won
But the difficulty is coming here
I will go in this way
And find my own way out
I won’t tell you to stay
But I’m coming to much more
All at once the ghosts come back
Reeling in you now
What if they came down crushing
Remember when I used to play for
All of the loneliness that nobody
Notices now
I’m begging slow I’m coming here
Only waiting I wanted to stay
I wanted to play,
I wanted to love you
I’m only this far
And only tomorrow leads my way

I’m coming waltzing back and
Moving into your head
Please, I wouldn’t pass this by
I wouldn’t take any more than
What sort of man goes by
I will bring water
Why won’t you ever be glad
It melts into wonder
I came in praying for you
Why won’t you run
In the rain and play
Let the tears splash all over you

The words in bold are the reason.
Because when everything gets all Topsy-turvy in this so-called life, when things seem bleak and you breakdown with fists clenched screaming at the sky, when you finally stabilize and see the silver lining on that once dark cloud, when you realize your mistakes to make them right, when you grow on [these] God-blessed days, and when you can ultimately realize who you are and what you can do and why you do everything you do then (THEN!) you realize that you “are only so far and tomorrow leads the way” and that’s when you decide you can “run in the rain and play and let the tears splash all over you”. You are free; you can be yourself, believe in yourself, and move forward.

{Autumn} Obsessions

For my 1999th post—here on the beloved-and-not-yet-dead-so-don’t-you-dare-count-it-out blog—I am going to take the time to talk about this autumn’s Mishi Obsessions.
1.)  Leaves on the Ground
I don’t care if they are wet, dry, crumbled, big, small, yellow, red, or orange, in a big pile or scattered about; fallen leaves beg [me] for a picture to be taken.  The more texture the better, too.
George Eliot said it best, “Delicious autumn! My very soul is wedded to it, and if I were a bird I would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns.”
2.) Ethnic Foods in my Belly
I had Cuban for the first time ever, the other day, and despite the inappropriate touching of the rock-climbing waitress, on the part of our almost six year old son, the experience was solid (like a rock).   See what I did there?  Rock-climbing waitress and solid like a rock?  Yeah, I’m totally hilarious like that, but I digress.  Ahem.
My other favorite, lately, is Thai.  Holy Moly, give me a big bowl of Green Curry with that perfectly cooked Jasmine rice, and I will do anything for you.  Except that.  Yes, that!  Except for you, Michael.  I’d totally do that for you.   I really should digress, again.  Ahem.
Honorable mentions go out to my new favorite dish, Burrito al Carbon, at Fajitas, and the Hot & Sour soup from the Chinese takey-outy place.



3.)Boots on my Foots
My last and current obsession is BOOTS.  I have been pining for a pair cowboy boots for a while now.  I need to just go ahead, bite the bullet, and order them.  But, I’m waiting to see Santa brings them (or I’m waiting to see if “Santa” is going to bring them!)  For now I have these boots.  I wore them when I shot the wedding of one of my GCA coworkers this past weekend.  That’s when I decided:  I. Need. MORE. Boots.  I need a pair of short, brown leather boots  and a pair of knit top ankle boots and a pair of Uggs (or Fuggs, because I really don’t care if they are actually the name brand, but I would totally prefer it) and while I’m at it I definitely think two pairs of cowboy boots are better than one and I choose THESE!  Because, duh, they are AWESOME!







We {heart} Biking

Everyone in our family loves to bike.  For Benny’s birthday, in September, we upgraded him to a 26″, 7 speed bike.  Previously he had a one-speed kids bike that was hard for him to ride in our hilly neighborhood.  Now, though, he and Mikey like to ride around our ‘hood and town together.   Davey is exclusively riding his two wheel kids bike(with training wheels) instead of his tricycle that he was practically attached to the pedals of every time he went outside to ride in the cul-de-sac.  We are all full-fledged riders now.  I think Olivia is next in the upgrade department, but Christmas is right around the corner, right?
Now what I really need is a bike rack for my van so that we can all go down to the The Big Creek Greenway a couple towns over.  I’ve dreamed of all of us going down to the Greenway for many years now, and now that Davey and Benny can ride, well, it’s time.  We went down a few times when we lived in GA (Part I), with Mo and her kids, and it was always such fun.
Friendly PSA:  Don’t forget to wear your helmets, kids!


A couple summers ago I rode my bike a lot for exercise, but lately I tend to get my bike riding time in with the Les Mills spin class called RPM.  I haven’t gone in a couple weeks and always feel bad when I don’t, which goes to show that is is a such a work-out!  This week I am going to strive to get into my favorite RPM class with my favorite RPM instructor Krystin.  I also want to get my hands on a heart rate monitor so that I know exactly how the work out is affecting me.
That said, this week marks my one year anniversary at my gym, Bodyplex.  My body has definitely reaped the benefits of weekly exercise, but I still have such a long way to go.  One thing’s for certain—I love that going to they gym is a part of my life!  Here’s to the next year and continued fitness and health!

[This is a sponsored post, but all sentiments are my own.]

I’ve Forgotten How to Blog

It’s been so long.  So long.  And, I think I may have even broken my blogging bone.  I’ll give it a whirl, though….
Life.  It’s been extremely busy.  It’s also changed so much this past year.  And, it’s changed for the better.  No, dare I say, changed for the best.
My job is going super well.  I love what I do and I’m pretty damn good at it.  My co-workers are all astounding women, and I am proud to call them my friends.
The gym, even though it’s been hit or miss the past month with all the sickies floating around, has been an amazing influence in my life.  I’ve not only improved my body, my strength, and my stamina, I’ve made more friends; it’s been a wonderful blessing.
My online, social media, life has shifted, too.  These days I’m all over Instagram (@secretagentmama – find me!), and my true socmed love is Facebook.  I love that there are so many different people from my life congregated in one place.  My family (parents, kids, aunts, uncles, cousins), my childhood friends, people I’ve known all my life, old high school chums, social media friends, co-workers, and so many more are all there for me to interact with and share the stories of our lives.   I also love the new time-line, but that’s just me, I’m a sucker for a nice cover photo!
Mine Craft Strawberry Cake and Grass Block Brownies
The biggest thing that happened in the past month is we now have (not one, but) TWO teenagers in the house.   Mikey turned 14 and Livey turned 13.   Mikey had a buddy spend the weekend with us, and it culminated in a Minecraft cake extravaganza.  Olivia had a special couple days out with me.  She got a feather in her hair, we went out to lunch a couple times, and we went girl-time shopping.  In a couple weeks she’ll be having all of her closest girlfriends over for a Just Dance Wii Party, complete with pizza and pop and chips and dips!  Invitations are going out tomorrow.
There are a few things I’ve been meaning to blog about, and I have vowed to come back and start telling stories again.   It’s important, and I really do miss it.  I’ve actually been scared to open up this blog again.  I think that silence can do that to a blogger.  We grow silent and it perpetuates, and after a while it’s just not important anymore.   That doesn’t sit well with me, though, because I love to share.  I’m a self-proclaimed over-sharer.  I need it.  I crave it.  I must do it.
So, starting tonight I am going to take the plunge.  I’m going to over-share and I’m going to like it.  *You might, too.
*Three out of four of my biggest blog fans are pictured above.  Someday it’ll be four out of four, but the littlest of my fans is only just learning how to read.



Confession Time

I have two confessions to make. Here it goes.
I’ve been going to my gym since the end of October.  I didn’t want to wait until the new year to make a resolution to get fit, but believe me I thought about it.  I decided it was time to be held accountable for my actions (or should I say, quite literally, my inactivity.)    It’s the best thing that I have done for myself in a long, long time.    That said, earlier this month, on Curvy Girl Guide, we Reinvented the Resolution in an effort to define our lives by a number other than the one that pops up on the stupid scale.   That number on the scale is not who I am or who I want to be, so I took it back. 
 I said,
“My number for 2012 is 2.  Since joining the gym, I have tried various group fitness classes, and I love them all so much.  They provide me with a great workout, but, beyond that, the instructors and my fellow “teammates” inspire and motivate me immensely.  With this new year I am committing to taking two RPM, two BodyPump, two BodyFlow, two CXWorx (core training), and two Zumba classes, every week!”
Two-and-a-half weeks later I have not been able to acheive this number. But, I’ve worked really hard at getting there.  I go to the gym about five times a week striving to get to my 2-2-2-2-2, but life and work and schedules and sickness have gotten in the way.    I’ve had to look at my goal and stop beating myself up about it if I only get 2-2-2-1-1 or 2-2-1-1-1 because, quite frankly, I’m still working my ass off.   I have all of 2012 to get to the point that I want to be at, and you can believe that I will definitely get there.  


My second confession is a little bit unbelievable.   It’s even hard for me to believe, but, truth is, I havent’ picked up my big camera since January 5th (and on that day I only took a handful of pictures of Davey riding his big boy bike in the cul-de-sac.)   It could have something to do with the winter.  Or life.  Or work.  Or schedules.  Or sickness.  Or whatever. 
InstagramThe saving grace in this confession is the camera on my iPhone.   Oh my gosh, that thing is incredible, and I ultimately think that the reason I haven’t picked up my beloved DSLR is that I have been having an amazingly fun time with the ease of use of the camera on my phone.    I’ve been snapping numerous photos, daily, often updating Instagram.  I’m even taking part in a photo-a-day project over there, complete with prompts.    So, while it’s a little hard to believe that I haven’t used my big camera in a few weeks I’m comforted in the knowledge that I’m still taking pictures and telling stories with my images.
Now that I think about it, I’m just switching it up.  Just like how I do at the gym!
I recently learned about photo books from Mixbooks, and cannot wait to try it out.   Since I’ve been taking a photo a day I plan on creating a photo book that will tell the story of my days.
Mixbooks look easy and fun to create, with software that is seemingly non-complicated.  You simply upload your photos and get creative.   There are templates to use or you can totally personalize it by creating your own.     
“Customize photo books to your liking. You can make your photo book unique with text, cropped and rotated photos, various fonts, and more! There’s no limit to what kinds of photo books you can make! Be completely satisfied with your printed photo book. Our photo books are printed on archival-quality silk 100 lb. paper with full photo wrap covers. Whether you choose a softcover or hardcover photo book, each product is 100% satisfaction guaranteed.”
I might even have to create one ahead of time because they look so easy and fun (and affordable, to boot.)    I better order soon because  they are offering 30% off, until January 23rd.   The coupon code is BOOK30.   Now I have to figure out what pictures to use!

[Disclosure:  This post was sponsored by, but the feelings expressed are purely my own.]

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